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Monday, February 8, 2010

.: cerita saya :.

i failed to wake up at 5 am this morning. yes. i've locked the alarm clock. 5 am. 5.15 am. i managed to wake up at 5.50. to have my drink as i planned to fast today. then, i went back to sleep. teruk kan?

i'm trying to change myself here. want to try to wake up at the middle of the night to perform night prayers... i planned to start this morning but I FAILED!

what saddened me was i woke up already but i went to sleep instead. wake up just to sleep adoyai~~

lately, i feel empty. something's missing inside but i just don't know what..why.........................

but, i had a lil chat with kak tura, she told me her routine was to wake up at 4.30 am to perform night prayers and then she continues her work. nice rite? when i heard that, i was like just waking up from a loooooooooooooong sleep. yup. i think i've distanced myself from my creator. feel like i'm too far from Thy. yup. i miss to be near to my One and Only Allah..

i wish to try again tomorrow morning. i must be strong! must be able to defeat Iblis' whispers.....

BANGUN WAN RAFIDAH! MESTI BANGUN!
JADINYA HARUS TIDUR AWAL TAU!

p/s* maznah....a'ah yg dlm berita tu. tcher x tau nape x leh reply kat comment form tu...hehehe

2 comments:

nawal said...

cikgu, all da best!!

Princess Dhyra said...

jum tc kite sme2 cbe bgn awal!!