.: kisahku mengawas spm :.

For this school holiday, i've been asked to invigilate spm at one of d school in sabak bernam. I've got this feeling that i will invigilate for this year's spm evethoug i really hope that i won't get the task. but what to do, it is written. erm...fair enough i guess as last year, my name wasn't listed to invigilate any major exam. thinking about the pay, i'm excited but thinking of burning my hlidays....wa..wa..wa..tp x pe lah,...kate 'saya yg menurut perintah'..hehehehe

when i was invigilating, there are many memorable events that i experienced.memorable?erm...not really but it's something good that i can learn ad i would like to share esp with youngsters and school students. the school that i am invigilating is just a ordinary school and all the students there are Malay and Muslims. what makes me sad was their attitude and their spirit. they came to sit for spm as if spm is nothing. when i was invigilating on the 2nd day, english and sejarah paper, 80% of the students left early before the time ends. when i looked at the paper, some of them didn't answer and some of them, erm...at least they wrote something. but amog them, there are a few students who have the spirit to wait until he last seconds. Alhamdulillah, at least the teacher won't be frustrated knowing that soem of them did stay until the end of time. do't you want to know what i think? when i saw them leaving the class, i thought of my beloved students at SMKASL.

i was imagining it was me taking the exam and my parents at home were praying for my success. won't they be hurt and sad knowing that i didn't try to answer the qs? definitely they'll be hurt. so, children out there, your parents will always pray or ur success but if u don't put ur effort, how would Allah fulfill the prayer? it is all back to u. taking it on my side as a teacher. yes i know and believe that human being has own ability and gift. a am math teacher and i believe that to success in math besides effort, it is the ability and Allah's gift to Thy servants. everybody has own ability. i might be good in math but i am terrible in drawing. i admit that maybe i'm not gifted in that field but i've tried my best during my art class when i was in school. as a teacher, i won't be that mad if a students has put their effort but still does not perform in exam. seriously i'm not mad, yet i really want to help them. i've got this kind of student. he never missed to attend any xtra class even if it is not my class-my partner's class and he always asks qs in class n diligent in doing all the exercises, but when it comes to to exam, he still can not perform. but seeing his effort, i am happy enough. compare it to another kind of student. he knows that he is weak. he knows that he has missed classes. he knows that if he doesn't seek for assistance from teachers, he will be left behind. he knows that he doesn't perform well in exam. he knows it but he doesn't put any effort to it.pathetic rite? i, as a teacher, i will be sad and sometimes i lost hope on the student. but please also know that i never missed to pray for my students' success. insya Allah =)