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Tuesday, March 2, 2010

.: should i....shouldn't i.... :.

ok..saya tau...sangat lame saya x update kan...cuti maulidur rasul ari tuh sangat pack..ari2 kuar..pegi pagi..balik petang..in fact, mase ari nak balik sg besar pon kuar jugak..n balik kul 4..kul 5 gerak balik sg besar...huhu...bz...bz..bz...ni blom preparation kawen lagi ni...aduhai....

erm...banyak yang bermain di fikiran...banyak sangat...tapi yang nak share ari ni adelah...kisah crushku..my first crush back in upsi..to those who used to read my blog back in fs..u'll know waht i'm trying to tell here..it was a history..seriously...he is out of the mind already..d day i accept my FH's love..i've decided to forget him..i mean..i have to..i have my HE...n he has his SHE.. -end-

but it's easy to say than doing it..no..don't get me wrong..there's no space for that guy to fill in my heart as my heart is full with love from my FH..yes..betul..benar...but..once in a while..d memories are there..yes..d memories..recently, nomie shared her story which is quite similar to d affair i used to have with 'first crush'~upsi time yo!so..me too shared d story..n we laughed...i mean..never tot that we actually shared the same experience..cool huh!huhuhu..but it ends there..

now..here comes the problem..he and his gf..both..requested to be my fb frens..used to have them in my fs..but no longer exist as i deleted them from my fs frens..n now..they come to fb and requested to be my frens..i know..it's a memory..it's a history..and i'm getting to another phase in my relationship~insya Allah..ya Allah...lindungilah kami dan ahli keluarga kami..dan permudahkanlah urusan kami....~but having them back in my life..err....i just do not know..should i...or shouldn't i?when i asked nomie..'ala ko approve je nti bile ko dah tunang..'~hahaha...good idea meh...

erm..tgk la mcm mane...hehehe...tp ade terdetik di hati..if i can now move on after what had happened..why can't i accept them..especially him...just as friend..just like the others.........erm.............

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