.: argh!!!! :.

ari ni balik lewat lg......penat...penat...dan penat.....letih....letih dan letih.....i don't mind spending my time in school if it is to teach d students....bile dah jd cikgu ni br tau....penat...i don't mind about teaching...at all...seriously...kdg2 rase cam byk keje admin lg dr 'core bussiness' iaitu mengajar....am i complaining?i guess so....ntah la.....PENAT...PENAT........tu je perasaan sekarang.....sebenarnye bengan btol ari ni....

kate meeting kul 3....tunda lak kul 4.....argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!tensen....saye pon mau berehat!!!!!!!!!!!sy pon perlukan privacy sy....kalo ikut ati....nak je balik....malas nak g meeting....tp....ape plak katenye nti...layankan jer....x ikhlas kan?erm.....sedih nyer......bile x ikhlas...hati mmg x happy.....................itu la perasaan sekarang ni......x berapa happy....rase cam nak letak je jawatan warden.............x arat dah...cukup la 2 tahun....

tp...kesian plak kat cikgu yg akan take over....mcm lepaskan diri sendiri tp...susahkan org lain plak....teruk ke saya kalo letak jawatan sebagai warden?sy dg x larat.....sy dah penat....cukup la 2 tahu ni.....i've had enough....if we see from the surface, we'll say that 'ala....warden x wat ape2 pn'...physicallly mmg x de ape....tp emotionally....kalo penat emotion....lg penat dr physical tau....cam ne yer....x de alasan utk letak jawatan....ade satu je alsan....tp dh x nak berharap pd alasan itu....sebab masih xpasti.....tp sy berharap sgt dpt pindah........

rase cam guru n warden cemerlang dah ni.....
ari ni agak memeberontak....
ye la....dah penat...ape lg....sy pon perlukan privacy sy jugak....
nekad la....nak letak jwtn warden....biarla.....
tp....x pe ke?kesian plak kat cikgu yg akan take over nanti...
tp dr kerja x ikhlas....lg teruk kot....kan?

.: cinta..love..pyar.. :.

love...

actually dis is one of the topics offered to students for their spm trial xm..

n most of them chose to write about love..some of them created a story about love...bla..bla...bla...some of them wrote about love as in factual...some of them just expressed their says about love...actually it's fun reading their essays...i got to know their expressions...erm...some of them were so shy in class yet produced a beautiful essay about love...see...how beautiful writing is...if u can't express it verbally...mayb writing is the best way...as for me...erm...i love writing eventhough i'm a math teacher...some things can't be expressed verbally, so i decided to create my own blog in order to write my say here....it's my blog...so i have the right to write n say what ever i want to...

it has been a long time since i wrote appropriately..n i guess slowly i've lost the touch...used to write a lot before in diary n in my previous blog...woder...what stops me from writing?it's just me i guess...because if i want to..i can just do it...right?

okay....enough...let's continue the topic...LOVE...love is very subjective. whenever we talk about love, we always think of the person that we adore,love, care, n admire so much..right?so do I...

being Muslim, our greates love should go to the ONLY ONE, ALLAH swt..i'm 25 already..i've done a lot of mistakes in my life..i''ve done a lot of sins..honestly, i'm very happy that slowly i realised all of them...bit by bit..Alhamdulillah Allah still give me chance to repent n correct my mistakes...can't be denied that, sometimes i do repeat it..i'm just a normal human being...but i really want to try to be better...to improve myself to a better muslimah...insya Allah...

then, love the messenger, Rasulullah saw...d greatest person in the world..the best idole for all..he loves all of his ummah even until his last breath, he still thinks of us...his ummah...he keeps repating about us even at then end of his life...how he really loves his ummah...so, our duty is to always pray for him n recite Al-fatihah for him after prays...

next my love will go to my family...arwah abah, umi, kak ngah n mannan...i just can't describe my love to them..they have all of my love..i would sacrifice anything n everything just to make them happy...sometimes i do feel sad for not having chance to repay on whatever abah has done for me..abah, my prayer n al-fatihah will always there for you till my last breath...n i romise to take a very good care of umi...anyhting just to make umi happy...i love my mom soooooo much...she is the best mother in the world...proud to have u...n glad that u r mine.... =)

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erm..talking about love...how about this...for not having a bf/gf, will u complaint about the lack of love in your life?asking this to me..when i was younger...maybe..as i'm getting maturer..not older...hehe...x nak ngaku tuh...huhu...i think that no...nothing is lack for not having a special bf/gf..as for me...ok fine..i do have a bf...but most of the time, i like to spend it with my family...especially my umi...i'm willing to drive from sg besar just to spend my weekend with my umi...

feeling lonely..yes...but for nohaving enough love...no...hey...come on...it's not the end of the world for not having a bf...tgk la saye...having a bf but as if i don't have one...i do a lot to myself to make sure that i feel loved..if i can't go back to putrajaya to spend my days...i'll go to my school n spending time with my students..they always make me feel loved whenever i'm with them...see...for not having my bf here..i still feel loved...yeah...mayb i don't get that love from a guy...but love is not meant for couple only...love is made for everybody...for u, me n everybody... n i dont find myself lack of love eventhough most of my friends are already married and they have their companion...hey, i also have mine...my umi...hehe...we love hanging out together...i also have companion at sg besar...my strength...my students...

to conclude, it's you to decide whether to feel loved or not...i choose to feel loved n to be loved...
what i can say here is...it's all back to urself...if u want to feel loved..u are the one who will decide...so...have u got ur decision?....live ur life to the fullest...get as much love as u can....

.: ku percaya ada cinta :.

ku percaya ada cinta~
dato ct nurahliza...

a nice song...with good lyrics =)

Mereka meragui wujudnya cinta yang sejati
Tidak hati ini
Semenjak dari mula
Ku yakin ada cinta
Cintalah yang memungkinkan segala

*
Ku rela biar betapa pun perit tertusuk duri
Jalan berliku tiada bertepi
Ku percaya tidak sia-sia aku diuji
Demi cinta tersembunyi hikmahNya pasti

Korus
Pandang-pandang alam ini
Sambil pandang difikiri
Mana bumbung langit tinggi
Mana lantai bumi
Tiap satu yang terjadi
Tidak mungkin tersendiri
Cuba cari jawapannya andai meragui

Mereka meragui wujudnya cinta yang sejati
Tidak hati ini
Semenjak dari mula
Ku yakin ada cinta
Cintalah yang memungkinkan segala

(Ulang *)
(Ulang Korus)
(Ulang *)

Ada hikmah yang pasti..
Sejak mula ku percaya ada cinta
Cinta itu memungkinkan segalanya
Cinta suci yang abadi

.; update :.

it has been a long time since i update my dearie bloggy nieh...bz ker...agak ler....

erm...so many things had happened...

15 oct 2009 maksu passed away...i was still in school..having meeting at that time...ucle yahya called me n i didn't answer...then, my mom called, n i didn't answer to...i felt weird...having umi n uncle yahaya calling me at d same time...but i just ignore it...but i sent umi an sms telling her dat i'm having a meeting...then umi replied...'bole kuar kejap x?urgent ni...'so i asked permission from my pengetua to b out for a while because i have to answer an important call...then i called my mom...n umi asked me whether i can come back or not...makssdu dah x da...mase tu...brak down agt2....aku nanges...x igt ape2...then, all of a sudden, kak tura, kak zana, pn normah n pengetua kuar dr meeting rrom...dh peluk aku..asking y am i crying?....i told them that my maksu had passed away...n i want to go back...mule2 kak tura x bg aku balik..sebabnyer...aku dok sedu2 nanges lg...die risau aku drive...die soh aku amek wuduk dulu...pas amek wuduk...lega sket...then kak tura n intan offer nak antar aku balik...tp bile pikir2 balik...erm...balik sdiri jer...nti nk balik sg besar x da kete lg susah owh...

pas2 dlm kul 6 sampai putrajaya..tros heading to masjid...alhamdulillah by maghrib dh siap kebumi...pas maghrib...baca talkin...

mungkin ini yg terbaik wat arwah maksu..arwah pon dh sakit...x leh bangun dah...aku redha...cume last2 tu aku x dpt jaga sgt...tu yg regret sgt...tp tu la...Allah nak uji setiap hamba-Nya...

semoga roh arwah maksu tenang di sana...

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for that...i've taken two leaves...emergency leave on friday...i've applied to take leave on monday as kak ngah's convocation on the day before...

owh terlupa plak...there are two events on d 18th tu...family gathering n kak ngah's convocation...
n say pegi dua2...agak rush tp mmg berbaloi...
picca?
ala...nti mintak dgn cousin ku...huhu...nti br upload eh..

gbr konvo kak ngah pon kat cousin ku...nti sy mintak yer...hehehe...

k la..will tell more bout d events after i've gotten d pic k....

till then...take care everybody =)

.: gbr guru...ikhlas? :.

lamenyer x bersihkan sawang2 di blog ku ini....online jer kat skola pon...tp more to siapkan keje..wat soklan exam budak2 n carik2 trial spm...lg sebulan je nak spm...sy sgt risau...on behalf of my students...tp sy dah npk kerisauan di muka mereka...erm...sumtimes...kerisauan itu perlu...so...kene la keje keras utk kurangka kerisauan...perlukan persediaan...

erm...for d past 2 weeks...me n d bujang2 di skolah..termasuk akak zarina ku jugak...we've been so bz attending cikgus open house...hehe...cikgu2 do skolah kami rajin wat open house..tukang makan nyer adalah kami yg bujang2...yg comel lg bergaya...hehehehe

n ade sesi amek gbr jugek utk majalah skolah...

here are d pics taken on d day...oct 2, 2009

gbr guru smkasl 2009

kamilah guru-guru jelita smkasl

kami yg sentiasa ceria =)

wut i can say...alhamdulillah dat i'm placed here as my first posting... a place i learn more n understand more about ISLAM..make me realise that nothing is more important than nikmat ISLAM n IMAN..

plus, most of my frens said that i've changed a lot..different than d old me..is it?erm..maybe.. i'm just trying to be better...yes...i'm not pious...but i want to try to be better...at least d best to my ownself if not to others....insya Allah...

most importantly,

IKHLAS, WASATIAH n ISTIQAMAH

in wut ever i do...n try to do in the future...insya Allah...doakan saya...

talking about IKHLAS....recently, i've kept in touch with izwan..or..famous known as wan staq, kata org alor setaq..or pak lang in upsi..die ni ala~ustaz gitu...hehehe..there's one nite that he msged me...wishing selamat berbuka puasa for puasa enam...n updating each other..coincidently, we both are the warden...so i wished him, semoga jadi warden yg cemerlang, gemilang n terbilang...n he replied......blablabla...i nk tmbah satu lg..IKHLAS KERANA ALLAH SEDAYA YG BOLEH....kdg terfikir ikhlas kah aku dlm setiap yg aku lakukan?ye...tau...IKHLAS itu RAHSIA ALLAH...tp takut sgt kalo yg dibuat tu...kerna terpaksa...bukan kerana Allah...name pon manusia...kdg2 pasti kita mengeluh...x puas hati...merungut...itu bukan tanda kita x ikhlas...ya Allah...malunya aku kerna x ikhlas dlm melakukan kerja2....mcm mane yer...supaya kita sentiasa ikhlas dlm melakukan sesuatu...doa je selalu supaya hati aku ikhlas dlm melakukan sesuatu...dlm melakukan ibadat...dlm melakukan perubahan...tp....ntah la...mesti ati tu rela x rela...as for now...mau ikhlaskan hati dlm melakukan tugasku sebagai seorg warden...n ikhlaskan hati dlm melakukan segala ibadat...insya Allah..

thanx to wan staq kerna mengingatkan ku tentang pentingnya ikhlas kerana Allah....

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